Punch me in the face, over and over.  Let a new face be free of grief;

Strangle me, again and again.  Let a new brain be free of dark thoughts;

Stab me, over and over.  Let a new body be free of holes in the womb;

Crush me, again and again.  Let a new soul be free of death’s vomit.

Then, kindly take me, in your arms.

Send away my swollen face, detached brain, deformed body, crushed soul,

With my lost baby,

To an unknown destination.

* A friend called after reading this to express her concerns.  I assured her that I am OK but just need to express my thoughts at the time. Thank you for caring about me.   


About jasmine shei

My blog is to express my journey in finding a purpose in life, after a great loss. As I wonder in the woods, I hope I will eventually find a path to a lifelong fulfillment.
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17 Responses to Reborn

  1. kazg10 says:

    Thank you for posting your addendum as I was also concerned. I realise you need to get it out and this is your forum to do that, but glad you are okay.


    • jasmineshei says:

      Thank you Karen! I think until one reaches the deep end, her/he could be recovered. I hope this is true for me.


      • kazg10 says:

        I hope so too and that you have reached that depth and now looking back up to the warm light waiting with us all. (not to be mistaken for the white light going to heaven, the one before that with family and friends on earth!) 🙂

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  2. meghanoc says:

    so raw and true.


  3. EnKay says:

    It’s like a punch to the gut. Raw and powerful. I hope the grief you express so eloquently here lessens in intensity and dulls with time. hugs!


  4. Aggie M. says:

    BIG sigh… That is raw stuff, thank you for sharing. Facing that is ‘doing your work’ right now, but I am so sorry, ouch… Hugs my dear friend…


  5. myhopejar says:

    Express away hon. Your expression is so powerful and this is the right outlet for it. And we are all here to support you. Sending you a huge hug.

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  6. I completely agree with myhopejar. Express away! Raw emotions are valid and this is a great outlet for them.

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  7. Healing Grief says:

    That is a good desciption of grief and the pain it brings us and when you are ready to let go, you will find your light, your hope and your peace. I wish you all of these.


  8. Elizabeth says:

    I’m in tears for you. Such love for your baby. I’m sorry for your grief. I wish you peace.


  9. I hope it helps you to get your feelings out this way. It’s so kind of your friend to reach out to you to check you were ok xxx

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  10. Georgia B. says:

    this is moving. you are very in touch with your pain and grief. i think that is so healthy. i wish i could write, even in pain, as eloquently as this. it’s difficult, and might seem worrisome to one who cares but does not understand the pain. but i get it. this is touching poetry.


    • jasmineshei says:

      Thank you! Believe it or not, I cannot write anything until 6 months after my loss. I cannot contain my sadness and focus on anything. Until this April, after it has consumed all I have, I finally decided it is time. I am glad I did. You are too humble, I love your blog, especially the pictures of Izzy and your thoughts. Knowing your story and your loss,it moves me every time I read.


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