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Journey In Numbers

He, Born, 6/26/2013, Deceased, 6/27/2013. On that God forsaken day, I cut open my chest, Took out the broken heart, Locked the pieces away… 633 days, 20,000 words, 70 posts, Later I opened the locker, Held out the pieces, Sat … Continue reading

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Straight Talk

Inspired by Leigh and her recent post, giving my 18 year old self a good talk to, I sat with myself, face to face, and had a straight talk with each other. Here is the transcript. Q: What was like … Continue reading

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Change

To me, 2013 was a Shit Hits The Fan year, traumatizing and devastating. 2014 was a year of internal struggle. Do not get me wrong.  I did not get on drugs or anything.  But, I have to admit in my … Continue reading

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Embraced

As I was walking to the elevator, a woman I have never met before embraced me and whispered to my ears, “Thank you for your speech, Jasmine. I lost three children… I have three beautiful children now. You will find … Continue reading

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An Elephant In the Room

After 10 days with people I know a little, some barely, for the holiday, I suddenly feel the urge of being left alone. For some moments, they created a distraction and I did not have to think about my own … Continue reading

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Fail to Launch: A letter to My Child

My child Kevin, I thought this year would be less difficult than the year before, the year your unexpected departure.  I thought I would have figured out what to do with my life.  But, in truth, I failed to launch, … Continue reading

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Role Reversal

The nurse came out the waiting room said, “Jasmine, your husband is ready for you.”   I followed her footsteps and asked, “How is he doing?” “He is OK. Resting.” I opened the curtain to see him. His face was pale, … Continue reading

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Sacred Project

After months of anticipation, it finally arrived, the sacred project video by Stephanie Paige Cole and Pia.   It was beautifully moving! Repeatedly you hear the word “sacred”, repeatedly you see the art of “sacred” bellies.  It represents all of … Continue reading

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A survivor

I am thankful that my husband and I are together, God knows, how many times I wanted to break free and threw everything away; I am thankful that my life is filled with fleeting moments of joy, It lights up … Continue reading

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Am I Ready?

Mood swings, nightmares, heartburns. Am I pregnant? Part of me wishing it were true. All the pains of missing my baby Kevin would ease up and I would be hopeful again. Part of me wishing it were not true. Mentally, … Continue reading

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