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Neighbor’s Grandchildren Playing

Kids’ cheering voices outside of the window wakes her up. She (in-law) walks toward the window and looks down: Neighbor’s grandchildren are visiting, five of them, playing on the deck. Their colorful hats, shorts and bathing suits are dancing under … Continue reading

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Tomorrow

He slowly walked towards the service table, sat on the edge of the chair, grabbed a pencil, and waited. Then, he In his shaking hands, he wrote:  Lord, baby Kevin is in your hands. Then, he folded the note once and … Continue reading

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A Shovel, Please!

Fear is a bitch. A little bit of fear will energize you, and motivate you do the things you would never do in your complacent mind. When too much fear strikes, it will just paralyze you. That is where I … Continue reading

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Life After Loss (part II)

One Cucumber and Three Donut Peaches We were out of cucumbers one Sunday. We decided to work for it, by walking to the grocery store, 4 miles away. It was ambitious for someone do not walk much on the daily … Continue reading

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Human Instinct

July 4, 2013 I had to break the news to my family and close friends. But where do I start? In the past seven days, I lost my baby son, had placenta abruption, preeclampsia, and HELLP. Almost did not make … Continue reading

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Lean on Me

A man and a woman are walking through the park, holding hands. The women’s belly has baby bump showing. She leans on him as she walks. Another month, they will be pushing a stroller in the shade, walking as three. … Continue reading

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A Child I’ll never know

He tiptoes into my room, gently cuddles me with his weightless arms, runs his tiny fingers through my wet face, voice soft and dreamy, “Mommy. No more crying. I am here.” I wake up with tearing eyes, heart aching, and … Continue reading

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One for One

“Are you ready?” The Mighty God looked down at a frail old man with labored breathing. “Is that true that you will take one life and bring one back?” The old man asked in his shaking voice. “Yes. One for … Continue reading

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Life After Loss (part I)

(An Open Letter to My Husband) I hope you understand why you are important to me.  I do not like to bug you if I do not have to.  We have lost so much last year.  We cannot LOSS each … Continue reading

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Say Something

Tears streaming down from my cheeks while I was driving, listening to “Say Something” on the radio. My son, Say something, I am giving up. I know, You will never come back. Because, You have not left. In my heart, … Continue reading

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