Punch me in the face, over and over. Let a new face be free of grief;
Strangle me, again and again. Let a new brain be free of dark thoughts;
Stab me, over and over. Let a new body be free of holes in the womb;
Crush me, again and again. Let a new soul be free of death’s vomit.
Then, kindly take me, in your arms.
Send away my swollen face, detached brain, deformed body, crushed soul,
With my lost baby,
To an unknown destination.
* A friend called after reading this to express her concerns. I assured her that I am OK but just need to express my thoughts at the time. Thank you for caring about me.
Journey in the Woods 
Thank you for posting your addendum as I was also concerned. I realise you need to get it out and this is your forum to do that, but glad you are okay.
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Thank you Karen! I think until one reaches the deep end, her/he could be recovered. I hope this is true for me.
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I hope so too and that you have reached that depth and now looking back up to the warm light waiting with us all. (not to be mistaken for the white light going to heaven, the one before that with family and friends on earth!) 🙂
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so raw and true.
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It’s like a punch to the gut. Raw and powerful. I hope the grief you express so eloquently here lessens in intensity and dulls with time. hugs!
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Thank you for commenting and the warm hug!
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BIG sigh… That is raw stuff, thank you for sharing. Facing that is ‘doing your work’ right now, but I am so sorry, ouch… Hugs my dear friend…
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Thank you, Aggie!
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Express away hon. Your expression is so powerful and this is the right outlet for it. And we are all here to support you. Sending you a huge hug.
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I completely agree with myhopejar. Express away! Raw emotions are valid and this is a great outlet for them.
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That is a good desciption of grief and the pain it brings us and when you are ready to let go, you will find your light, your hope and your peace. I wish you all of these.
Karen
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Thank you Karen! I will get there one day!
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I’m in tears for you. Such love for your baby. I’m sorry for your grief. I wish you peace.
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Thank you, Elizabeth, for your kindness!
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I hope it helps you to get your feelings out this way. It’s so kind of your friend to reach out to you to check you were ok xxx
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this is moving. you are very in touch with your pain and grief. i think that is so healthy. i wish i could write, even in pain, as eloquently as this. it’s difficult, and might seem worrisome to one who cares but does not understand the pain. but i get it. this is touching poetry.
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Thank you! Believe it or not, I cannot write anything until 6 months after my loss. I cannot contain my sadness and focus on anything. Until this April, after it has consumed all I have, I finally decided it is time. I am glad I did. You are too humble, I love your blog, especially the pictures of Izzy and your thoughts. Knowing your story and your loss,it moves me every time I read.
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