Tag Archives: Infertility

Back to Zero

“Mom, why does not Li’s family have any kids?” I cannot help asking mother about our neighbor when I was little. “They just do not,” Mother put it simply. “Maybe they cannot. I do not know. They sure are a … Continue reading

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Save Myself

Jane, a close friend of mine since college, is a mother of three. Her first child is already in her teens and through her second marriage, she has two kids, a three year old and 7 month old. These days, … Continue reading

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I arrived early, and picked the same seat in the café and sat down.   Everything was the same, the décor, the smell. A year and an half ago, three of us gathered here for the 1st time, right after we … Continue reading

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Straight Talk

Inspired by Leigh and her recent post, giving my 18 year old self a good talk to, I sat with myself, face to face, and had a straight talk with each other. Here is the transcript. Q: What was like … Continue reading

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How Far Will You Go?

Another miracle just performed — First Womb-Transplant Baby Born.  How shocking! Advancements in medicine keep challenging the Mother Nature and once again it succeeded. My heart just paused. How far will you go? ….

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Voice in My Head

“Do I want to hold the baby? “ “What if I like it?” “How many more IVF am I ready to do? The odds are not in my favor, 1 out of 3, over 5 years!” “If I am lucky … Continue reading

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To Live and Be Alive

I love exploring new places. Once I am there, I immerse myself in the “newness”. I get excited, eyeballs popping and camera clicking.   A different side of me, surfaced — I am no longer hesitating or calculating. I just go find … Continue reading

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A Dry Well

A dry well in the middle of the forest: weeds over grown and invaded her a year ago.  Her stone edges are cracked open in many places just like her wrinkled face.  She is no longer functional as nature intended. … Continue reading

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A long way home

April is a magical time: days are longer; sun is shining; air is fresh. The lifeless planet is covered with colorful cherry blossoms. One cannot help but feel hopeful. I know I was, this time last year…. The plane to … Continue reading

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